Safety

"Do you remember the train of thoughts that you couldn't control nor silence B ? Well, you are in it, your new safe haven. I know it must sound crazy to you but I think we have a better chance to escape It by hidding within this place. The train was never the issue, just a new mechanism in reponse to the madness that was spreading. It does look scary but I can't afford to lose myself and you to this monster. "
I can see how overwhelming and difficult to understand the process is for my younger self but it is for the best. For too long I have deserted this important part of my being, left it to suffer in the darkest corners of my mind. I thought the child in me was worth to sacrifice for what I believe to be now ephemeral recognition and fleeting joys. I condemned this innocence to a neverending suffering and sorrow, but it doesn't mean that it has to continue. I may never be able to make him whole again but I can at least keep the distance between him and this parasitic blight.